Psalm 34:18
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit
This blog was intended to be a way to share our journey together as husband and wife with those that love and support us. On the journey of life, there will always be ups and downs, and as husband and wife we have vowed to see one another through those ups and downs. This is one of those times. I am reminded in this moment of weakness of a song sung during the lighting of the unity candle at our wedding, "Tomorrow morning if you wake up and the sun does not appear, I will be here". I know we will pull through this together, and the sun will appear again.
On February 28th, we were pleasantly surprised with a pregnancy that we hadn't really planned for, but were absolutely thrilled about. We went through the whole, "Do we tell people, and when?". While Santi was excited and ready to tell the world, I felt anxious and uncertain. I had this instinct that maybe letting our little secret out wasn't the best idea just yet. We waited. We saw one doctor for the basic blood work. All was well, but we decided we weren't fond of that doctor and wanted to switch. We had an appointment with the new doctor during my 10th week. It was the earliest we could get in. On that day, we had planned to let our secret out after the doctor's appointment. I had felt it would be okay then.
During that appointment, we discovered two things about our surprise pregnancy:
1) It was twins
2) It was not a viable pregnancy, both twins had stopped developing at around 6 weeks
While we went through a range of emotions after receiving that devastating news, I felt as though I had known all along. It was instinct.
It didn't matter that we hadn't "planned" that pregnancy, we wanted those babies, they were our babies, and we were lost without them. I was instantly taken back to December, when we had taken a "leap of faith".
In December, we had the big "baby talk". While Santi was more than ready, I was hesitant. I wanted more money in savings, a better job for Santi, I wanted to be finished with my master's degree...the list goes on an on. But I felt God calling me to take a "leap of faith" and trust that He would provide for us and for a child if we would only trust Him with the timing of children. So, I agreed that we could "let things happen", but we weren't going to try to make anything happen. It was up to God.
Well, I took that leap of faith and it took me down a path I could have never imagined. All that worry about how we were going to afford a baby, daycare, finishing my master's, etc. disappeared. Instead, it was replaced with heartache and longing for a baby, and fear that we may never have children. I felt like the whole world was pregnant and everywhere I went there were babies. It was a constant reminder of what we had lost. For awhile, and sometimes still, I felt angry with God. It just didn't seem fair. One day towards the end of the school year, one of my kindergarten students came up to me in the morning and told me she had something for me. She of course knew nothing about what I had gone through. She handed me a little stuffed frog that she had obviously found somewhere around her house, and it said "leap of faith" on the front. It was like a reminder from God that He is in control, and that He is going to honor my leap of faith by being faithful in return and blessing us not only with a child, but with the financial peace to comfortably raise that child. I felt relieved. Tevez has since eaten that little stuffed frog (of course), but I will always remember that sign from God.
So here we are, still waiting for another opportunity to be blessed with a child, but not forgetting the angel babies we lost. While I have found a lot of comfort in an online support group for pregnancy loss, as well as through talking with friends and family members who have been through the same thing, it is still a struggle for both of us. Every day we must rely on strength from God and one another to get through this trying time, and I know the sun will shine again.
We debated for a long time about whether or not to share our loss with others. Of course our immediate family knew, and friends from Bible study, as well as colleagues out of necessity, but we weren't quite certain about sharing the loss of a pregnancy with anyone else when we had not even shared our pregnancy news to begin with. To some miscarriage is a taboo subject. It's not something people talk about, despite the fact that many deal with the grief of pregnancy and infant loss. After our loss, so many people I was close to, and even those I didn't know very well, came to me and shared their stories of loss. Although it was disheartening to know so many had suffered the same pain, it was also comforting to know they understood and were there to support us. I hope that maybe sharing our journey can help others better understand where we are coming from.
In my time with my online support group, I found a lot of things that have helped with the healing process, and some of these things explained my feelings better than anything I could have written myself, so I thought I would share them here as well.
The first is a poem that I really liked
Tiny Footprints on a Mother's Heart
When a baby arrives,
be it for a day, a month, a year or more,
or perhaps only a sweet flickering moment-
the fragile spark of a tender soul
the secret swell of a new pregnancy
the goldfish flutter known to only you-
you are unmistakeningly changed...
the tiny footprints left behind on your heart
bespeak your name as Mother.
Some more things you should know about what I am going through:
1) It will take time to move on, it's not going to "all go away" in a few weeks or months
2) A new pregnancy will not help me forget
3) My life will never be the same, even after I have a healthy baby
4) My grieving over a life that was only known to me does not make me weak
5) It is really hard to hear about new pregnancies or healthy births of friends or family members. I usually feel jealous, hurt, and angry. I will tell you congratulations, and I mean it. I am truly happy for you, but I am not delighted to hear it at a time when I am dealing with my own loss. I sometimes avoid situations where I will be around pregnant friends or friends with babies, which is not always easy. This does not make me a bad person. I am human, and I am trying to move past these feelings and emotions with the grace of God. I am being totally honest here.
6) I am not upset that you are pregnant, I am upset that I am not.
7) It doesn't matter how far along I was in my pregnancy, we bonded with the babies from the beginning, and our grief is no less than any other.
I know that now I have gotten all this off my chest, I can move forward with the healing process. For those who love us and actually read our blog, please know that we love you all and your support means so much to us. We are sharing this not in a search for sympathy, but to share a part of our lives that has affected us greatly. We will keep you posted on our journey to becoming parents, and hopefully our second chance will come quickly.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Update on my 101 in 1,001
I have managed to cross a few more things off my list!
My 101 in 1,001: 101 things to tackle in 1,001 days
Start Date: April 24, 2010
End Date: January 19, 2013 (wow that seems like a long time from now!)
Personal Improvement:
Attend yoga at least once a week for two months
Attend kickboxing class at least once a week for two months
Try acupuncture
Not eat out for a month
Have a no tv/internet week
Participate in some type of run (5k, etc.)
Finish my Master's Degree (anticipated graduation date is October 13, 2010!)
Try a whole Zumba class at the gym
Do strength training exercises twice a week for a month (working on this)
Jog 3 miles again like I used to be able to do:)
Have a spa day
Get some new jewelry
Get an awesome pair of heels and actually wear them
Get a tan! (completed 7/10, I have been spending some time at the pool with my friend Audrey!)
Get teeth professionally whitened
Faith:
Finish reading the entire Bible
Consistently journal my Bible reading daily for at least one month
Share my faith with someone new
Complete a missions trip of some sort
Pray for others every day (work in progress)
Travel:
Visit San Diego (completed 6/10, our five year plan now includes moving here!)
Visit Tombstone
Go camping
Return to Ecuador
Go to the Galapagos
Go on a cruise
Drive route 1 in California (completed 6/10, only the southern portion, we will work on the northern portion!)
Stay at the Venetian in Vegas
Go to the Phoenix Zoo (and not just for Zoolights)
Go to Napa Valley
Stay somewhere new in Sedona
Visit Flagstaff in the winter
Adventures:
Hike Camelback mountain
Hike the Grand Canyon
Learn to play golf
Learn to play blackjack
Try 20 new recipes (8/20)
Learn to make a new mixed drink
Chop my hair off (Done! 5/28/10)
Read 10 new books (currently reading 1 of 10)
Try the night tour of the Desert Botanical Gardens
Try 5 new hiking trails in Phoenix
Find 10 new restaurants to try in Phoenix (3/10)
1. Ta Carbon (super yummy Mexican hole-in-the-wall kind of place)
2. Joe's Farm Grill (another restaurant from Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives)
3. Over Easy (great little breakfast place, also from Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives)
Make ceviche again Done 5/16/2010
Learn to bake and decorate a cake
Get a bike or rollerblades
Go horseback riding again
Go to a concert
Stay for both movies at the drive-in
Go swimming in Lake Pleasant
Find a place to go fishing in Phoenix
Drive across the border
Buy an expensive bottle of wine (more than $20)
Try 5 new sushi rolls (1/5)
1. Hawaiian roll
Family/Friends:
Have a baby
Have a girl's weekend with my college roommates (leaving on Thursday!)
Have a designated date night once a week for a month
Go on a picnic with my husband
Take my dog to the dog park in Gilbert with the lake (checked it out on 5/16/10, planning to take Tevez in a couple of weeks, it looks really cool!)
Get grandma and grandpa out here for a visit
Have a candlelight dinner with my husband once a week for a month
Take a dancing lesson with my husband
Take a mother/daughter trip
Host a wine and cheese party
Go to at least 5 sporting events with my husband
Get professional pictures taken of my husband and I
Financial:
Pay off the Nissan Altima
Get a minimum of $5,000 in the savings account
Reach a point financially where I can stay home or work from home
Stick with a budget for five full months
Not buy any new clothes for a month
Spend less than $300 on groceries in a month
Put $5 in the savings for each completed task and donate $5 for each incomplete task
Hobbies and Creativity:
Make Shutterfly albums with all of our pictures
Learn some type of new craft
Get a nicer camera and learn how to take great pictures
Update blog at least once a month (in progress)
Go to a pottery studio
Home:
Redecorate/repaint our bedroom
Buy a sectional sofa with a pullout couch for our guests
Finally clean and organize the office (completed 5/1/10 thanks to my husband!)
Buy something from Etsy
Put grass in our backyard
Get some flower pots for the front yard
Have a shredding party and clean out the filing cabinet
Get a digital picture frame (done 7/10, love it!)
Make the bed every day for a week (done 5/10)
Organize my favorite recipes
Keep up with cleaning for an entire week (done summer '10, does it count since I was on vacation?)
Bake something once a month for three months
Reaching Out:
Volunteer somewhere other than church
Leave a 50% tip for dinner
Give money to one of the homeless people by school
Actually meet and know both of our neighbors names
Lend someone a microloan
Send handwritten notes to each of our sponsor children in Ecuador
Pay for the person behind me in the drive through
Make a new friend
Buy a goat for someone in a poor country
Getting Green:
Use reusable shopping bags every shopping trip for a month
Try a new "green" method of cleaning
Eat fruit off the trees in our own backyard
Grow an indoor herb garden (done 6/10, unfortunately there is no good place to keep them and they died)
Learn to garden desert style and actually have a vegetable garden in our backyard
There you have it! If you are interested in starting your own list, here is a great website to get you going:
http://dayzeroproject.com/
My 101 in 1,001: 101 things to tackle in 1,001 days
Start Date: April 24, 2010
End Date: January 19, 2013 (wow that seems like a long time from now!)
Personal Improvement:
Attend yoga at least once a week for two months
Attend kickboxing class at least once a week for two months
Try acupuncture
Not eat out for a month
Have a no tv/internet week
Participate in some type of run (5k, etc.)
Finish my Master's Degree (anticipated graduation date is October 13, 2010!)
Try a whole Zumba class at the gym
Do strength training exercises twice a week for a month (working on this)
Jog 3 miles again like I used to be able to do:)
Have a spa day
Get some new jewelry
Get an awesome pair of heels and actually wear them
Get teeth professionally whitened
Faith:
Finish reading the entire Bible
Consistently journal my Bible reading daily for at least one month
Share my faith with someone new
Complete a missions trip of some sort
Pray for others every day (work in progress)
Travel:
Visit Tombstone
Go camping
Return to Ecuador
Go to the Galapagos
Go on a cruise
Stay at the Venetian in Vegas
Go to the Phoenix Zoo (and not just for Zoolights)
Go to Napa Valley
Stay somewhere new in Sedona
Visit Flagstaff in the winter
Adventures:
Hike Camelback mountain
Hike the Grand Canyon
Learn to play golf
Learn to play blackjack
Try 20 new recipes (8/20)
Learn to make a new mixed drink
Read 10 new books (currently reading 1 of 10)
Try the night tour of the Desert Botanical Gardens
Try 5 new hiking trails in Phoenix
Find 10 new restaurants to try in Phoenix (3/10)
1. Ta Carbon (super yummy Mexican hole-in-the-wall kind of place)
2. Joe's Farm Grill (another restaurant from Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives)
3. Over Easy (great little breakfast place, also from Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives)
Learn to bake and decorate a cake
Get a bike or rollerblades
Go horseback riding again
Go to a concert
Stay for both movies at the drive-in
Go swimming in Lake Pleasant
Find a place to go fishing in Phoenix
Drive across the border
Buy an expensive bottle of wine (more than $20)
Try 5 new sushi rolls (1/5)
1. Hawaiian roll
Family/Friends:
Have a baby
Have a girl's weekend with my college roommates (leaving on Thursday!)
Have a designated date night once a week for a month
Go on a picnic with my husband
Take my dog to the dog park in Gilbert with the lake (checked it out on 5/16/10, planning to take Tevez in a couple of weeks, it looks really cool!)
Get grandma and grandpa out here for a visit
Have a candlelight dinner with my husband once a week for a month
Take a dancing lesson with my husband
Take a mother/daughter trip
Host a wine and cheese party
Go to at least 5 sporting events with my husband
Get professional pictures taken of my husband and I
Financial:
Pay off the Nissan Altima
Get a minimum of $5,000 in the savings account
Reach a point financially where I can stay home or work from home
Stick with a budget for five full months
Not buy any new clothes for a month
Spend less than $300 on groceries in a month
Put $5 in the savings for each completed task and donate $5 for each incomplete task
Hobbies and Creativity:
Make Shutterfly albums with all of our pictures
Learn some type of new craft
Get a nicer camera and learn how to take great pictures
Update blog at least once a month (in progress)
Go to a pottery studio
Home:
Redecorate/repaint our bedroom
Buy a sectional sofa with a pullout couch for our guests
Buy something from Etsy
Put grass in our backyard
Get some flower pots for the front yard
Have a shredding party and clean out the filing cabinet
Organize my favorite recipes
Bake something once a month for three months
Reaching Out:
Volunteer somewhere other than church
Leave a 50% tip for dinner
Give money to one of the homeless people by school
Actually meet and know both of our neighbors names
Lend someone a microloan
Send handwritten notes to each of our sponsor children in Ecuador
Pay for the person behind me in the drive through
Make a new friend
Buy a goat for someone in a poor country
Getting Green:
Use reusable shopping bags every shopping trip for a month
Try a new "green" method of cleaning
Eat fruit off the trees in our own backyard
Learn to garden desert style and actually have a vegetable garden in our backyard
There you have it! If you are interested in starting your own list, here is a great website to get you going:
http://dayzeroproject.com/
And.......I'm bored.
Vacation has come and gone, just as vacations tend to do. We had a wonderful time (albeit very very sticky) in Indiana visiting with family. My parents even planned a big get-together lunch in North Vernon so I could see my extended family. It was a great surprise! California was totally awesome as usual. We spent a couple days hanging out with Santi's family in L.A. and then drove down to San Diego for a mini-vacation. It was nice to have that alone time, the weather was incredible, and southern California is just breath-taking. Santi and I agreed that moving there is definitely in our 5 year plan! Here are some pics of our fantastic trip, enjoy.
I have spent the last week cleaning and catching up on some household chores, but let me say the last couple of days have been so boring. Santi is working, which leaves me home with Tevez ALL DAY LONG. It is too hot to go outside and do anything, and I am trying to avoid retail therapy so that means I pretty much can't leave the house. Don't get me wrong, I have plenty I could be doing for grad school and my classroom, but no matter how hard I try I cannot seem to get motivated to tackle those things. I will have to suck it up and go into school a few days this week. I really want to get a head start so I don't feel so rushed the week before like always. The bad thing is, I really need to do my annual back to school shopping for my classroom, and that is usually pretty dangerous. At least tomorrow is the 4th of July and believe it or not Santi actually has the day off! I am looking forward to spending the day together and not being stuck in this house all day. We have church in the morning, then some yard work before it gets too hot (yesterday was almost a record breaker). Then, we are going to the grocery store to pick up some things to grill out. We are having a family from Bible study over to BBQ with us, then we are all going to the Goodyear Ballpark to watch some fireworks. It should be a good time!
I have spent the last week cleaning and catching up on some household chores, but let me say the last couple of days have been so boring. Santi is working, which leaves me home with Tevez ALL DAY LONG. It is too hot to go outside and do anything, and I am trying to avoid retail therapy so that means I pretty much can't leave the house. Don't get me wrong, I have plenty I could be doing for grad school and my classroom, but no matter how hard I try I cannot seem to get motivated to tackle those things. I will have to suck it up and go into school a few days this week. I really want to get a head start so I don't feel so rushed the week before like always. The bad thing is, I really need to do my annual back to school shopping for my classroom, and that is usually pretty dangerous. At least tomorrow is the 4th of July and believe it or not Santi actually has the day off! I am looking forward to spending the day together and not being stuck in this house all day. We have church in the morning, then some yard work before it gets too hot (yesterday was almost a record breaker). Then, we are going to the grocery store to pick up some things to grill out. We are having a family from Bible study over to BBQ with us, then we are all going to the Goodyear Ballpark to watch some fireworks. It should be a good time!
Friday, June 4, 2010
Ahhhhh Summer....
Well, this is the end of my second week of summer vacation, and let me say it's been fantastic! The end of the school year is always a hectic time, graduation, finishing up curriculum work, testing, cleaning up the room, parties, memories. It's exhausting. I will say that every May I get sad to see my class move on, especially knowing I won't see some of them again because we have a very migrant population. I had an amazing class this year, which I think I mentioned before a few times:) They looked so precious in their graduation outfits, and every year I am so surprised at how much the grow and change over the course of just one year. Here they are all decked out for kindergarten graduation:
Can you believe how cute some of those boys are?! They look like little men. Ha ha ha...if only you knew how they acted!
So, since school has been out, I have done a lot of nothing. Cleaning, sleeping, hitting the gym, cooking. Tomorrow morning I have to take a test on the U.S. and Arizona Constitutions to renew my state teaching license. So technically I should be studying right now. I'll get to that.
Oh! And I chopped my hair off to donate again! I almost forgot to mention that! I would add a photo but it's not working.
In less than 2 weeks we leave for vacation and I cannot wait to get out of here! I am getting cabin fever being home alone all this time. Our first stop will be Indiana for a few days to visit family, then we will be bringing Santi's grandpa (who is here from Ecuador) back with us to Phoenix. That evening we will repack our bags and hop in the car to drive out to L.A., which is only about a 4 hour drive from here. We will be staying with Santi's aunt, uncle, and cousins for a couple of days to celebrate Father's Day with grandpa. Then, they are off to Europe with grandpa and Santi and I are driving down to San Diego for a nice vacation ALONE. We have not had a vacation with just the two of us since our honeymoon, so I am really looking forward to spending that time together. It's also kind of a belated anniversary for us. That's right, our 3rd wedding anniversary is coming up on the 9th. It's so hard to believe it has been 3 years already. Time flies. Over the course of those three years we have done a lot, seen a lot, traveled a lot, accomplished a lot, and been through a lot...but we have done it all together. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful husband and a wonderful marriage. I cannot wait to go through the rest of life together.
Moving on to my 101 in 1,001. I am slowly checking things off our list. I have been doing a lot of cooking, so I have several new recipes to add to my list (they will also follow below). I have made the bed an entire week (which is only because I am on summer break and have the time, and I am now the last one out of bed). My indoor herb garden is growing, I guess it looks okay so far, we will see if we ever get actual "herbs" or just some green sprouts. So, for now, here is my updated list:
My 101 in 1,001: 101 things to tackle in 1,001 days
Start Date: April 24, 2010
End Date: January 19, 2013 (wow that seems like a long time from now!)
Personal Improvement:
Attend yoga at least once a week for two months
Attend kickboxing class at least once a week for two months
Try acupuncture
Not eat out for a month
Have a no tv/internet week
Participate in some type of run (5k, etc.)
Finish my Master's Degree
Try a whole Zumba class at the gym
Do strength training exercises twice a week for a month (working on this)
Jog 3 miles again like I used to be able to do:)
Have a spa day
Get some new jewelry
Get an awesome pair of heels and actually wear them
Get a tan!
Get teeth professionally whitened
Faith:
Finish reading the entire Bible
Consistently journal my Bible reading daily for at least one month
Share my faith with someone new
Complete a missions trip of some sort
Pray for others every day (work in progress)
Travel:
Visit San Diego
Visit Tombstone
Go camping
Return to Ecuador
Go to the Galapagos
Go on a cruise
Drive route 1 in California
Stay at the Venetian in Vegas
Go to the Phoenix Zoo (and not just for Zoolights)
Go to Napa Valley
Stay somewhere new in Sedona
Visit Flagstaff in the winter
Adventures:
Hike Camelback mountain
Hike the Grand Canyon
Learn to play golf
Learn to play blackjack
Try 20 new recipes (8/20)
Learn to make a new mixed drink
Chop my hair off (Done! 5/28/10)
Read 10 new books (currently reading 1 of 10)
Try the night tour of the Desert Botanical Gardens
Try 5 new hiking trails in Phoenix
Find 10 new restaurants to try in Phoenix (2/10)
1. Ta Carbon (super yummy Mexican hole-in-the-wall kind of place)
2. Joe's Farm Grill (another restaurant from Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives)
Make ceviche again Done 5/16/2010
Learn to bake and decorate a cake
Get a bike or rollerblades
Go horseback riding again
Go to a concert
Stay for both movies at the drive-in
Go swimming in Lake Pleasant
Find a place to go fishing in Phoenix
Drive across the border
Buy an expensive bottle of wine (more than $20)
Try 5 new sushi rolls
Family/Friends:
Have a baby
Have a girl's weekend with my college roommates (in the planning stages)
Have a designated date night once a week for a month
Go on a picnic with my husband
Take my dog to the dog park in Gilbert with the lake (checked it out on 5/16/10, planning to take Tevez in a couple of weeks, it looks really cool!)
Get grandma and grandpa out here for a visit
Have a candlelight dinner with my husband once a week for a month
Take a dancing lesson with my husband
Take a mother/daughter trip
Host a wine and cheese party
Go to at least 5 sporting events with my husband
Get professional pictures taken of my husband and I
Financial:
Pay off the Nissan Altima
Get a minimum of $5,000 in the savings account
Reach a point financially where I can stay home or work from home
Stick with a budget for five full months
Not buy any new clothes for a month
Spend less than $300 on groceries in a month
Put $5 in the savings for each completed task and donate $5 for each incomplete task
Hobbies and Creativity:
Make Shutterfly albums with all of our pictures
Learn some type of new craft
Get a nicer camera and learn how to take great pictures
Update blog at least once a month (in progress)
Go to a pottery studio
Home:
Redecorate/repaint our bedroom
Buy a sectional sofa with a pullout couch for our guests
Finally clean and organize the office (completed 5/1/10 thanks to my husband!)
Buy something from Etsy
Put grass in our backyard
Get some flower pots for the front yard
Have a shredding party and clean out the filing cabinet
Get a digital picture frame
Make the bed every day for a week (done 5/10)
Organize my favorite recipes
Keep up with cleaning for an entire week
Bake something once a month
Reaching Out:
Volunteer somewhere other than church
Leave a 50% tip for dinner
Give money to one of the homeless people by school
Actually meet and know both of our neighbors names
Lend someone a microloan
Send handwritten notes to each of our sponsor children in Ecuador
Pay for the person behind me in the drive through
Make a new friend (met a girl from Gilbert, AZ)
Buy a goat for someone in a poor country
Getting Green:
Use reusable shopping bags every shopping trip for a month
Try a new "green" method of cleaning
Eat fruit off the trees in our own backyard
Grow an indoor herb garden (in progress, just planted my cilantro and parsley!)
Learn to garden desert style and actually have a vegetable garden in our backyard
There you have it! If you are interested in starting your own list, here is a great website to get you going:
http://dayzeroproject.com/
And some delicious new recipes!
Try them!
An Ecuadorian favorite, not the first time we have made this one:
Swordfish Ceviche with Chifles and Patacones, and served with Bud Light Lime of course:)
This recipe comes from a cookbook I bought in Ecuador. It is a very popular dish there, and soooo good.
1. Cut fresh swordfish into small squares
2. Place fish in a large bowl with 1 cup of freshly squeezed lime juice, salt, and pepper
3. Mix together and allow to sit in the refrigerator for at least 3 hours, stirring occasionally (the acid in the juice "cooks" the fish)
4. Meanwhile, slice a red onion very thin, and put in boiling water to make it soft and take away some of the bitterness, drain
5. Add to the onion one diced tomato and a handful of chopped fresh cilantro, set aside
6. Remove fish from fridge, add in a small amount of orange juice and a tbsp of dijon mustard, mix well
7. Cook on low heat for 10 minutes, then add onion, tomato, and cilantro
8. Mix and taste (you can add more orange juice if it's too bitter
9. Let ceviche cool in the fridge, then serve with chifles and patacones as well as some fresh popcorn (we used something special from Ecuador)
YUM!
To make chifles, you take a plantain that is green (they look like big bananas at the store) and you slice it very very thin like potato chips and fry them in oil, add a little salt
To make patacones, you take a green plantain and slice it into about 2 in pieces, then you fry those pieces in hot oil, take them out and smash them down with a glass, dip them in salt water, and put them back into the frying pan until they are golden brown
This is what patacones look like. We have a special tool to smash them, but a glass works fine.
Next recipe is...
Grilled Mahi Mahi Fish Tacos
I love fish tacos. Here's how I made these:
1. Marinate two Mahi Mahi fish fillets in olive or canola oil with chili powder (lots), lime juice (lots), and chopped fresh cilantro.
2. Grill the fish in foil until flakey, then flake fish with a fork and place on corn tortillas (they have to be corn for fish tacos)
3. Serve diced tomatoes, chopped fresh cilantro, chopped green onions, shredded cabbage, and sour cream on top
4. We ate ours with brown rice and sliced avacado
And my favorite salad ever...
Strawberry and Spinach Grilled Chicken Salad
This is the best summer salad!
For the dressing:
1. Mix together balsalmic vinegar, olive oil, strawberry preserves, and dijon mustard (I just played with the amounts until it tasted good)
2. Heat them over low heat until strawberry preserves "melt", then put in the fridge to cool
3. Grill some chicken with just basic salt and pepper seasoning, cut into strips and set aside
4. The salad consists of spinach, sliced strawberries, feta cheese, chopped walnuts, and chopped green onions
5. Arrange chicken on top and pour on the dressing. Soooo good. Even Santi asked for it again the next night!
Well, that's all I have for now. Time to go study!
Can you believe how cute some of those boys are?! They look like little men. Ha ha ha...if only you knew how they acted!
So, since school has been out, I have done a lot of nothing. Cleaning, sleeping, hitting the gym, cooking. Tomorrow morning I have to take a test on the U.S. and Arizona Constitutions to renew my state teaching license. So technically I should be studying right now. I'll get to that.
Oh! And I chopped my hair off to donate again! I almost forgot to mention that! I would add a photo but it's not working.
In less than 2 weeks we leave for vacation and I cannot wait to get out of here! I am getting cabin fever being home alone all this time. Our first stop will be Indiana for a few days to visit family, then we will be bringing Santi's grandpa (who is here from Ecuador) back with us to Phoenix. That evening we will repack our bags and hop in the car to drive out to L.A., which is only about a 4 hour drive from here. We will be staying with Santi's aunt, uncle, and cousins for a couple of days to celebrate Father's Day with grandpa. Then, they are off to Europe with grandpa and Santi and I are driving down to San Diego for a nice vacation ALONE. We have not had a vacation with just the two of us since our honeymoon, so I am really looking forward to spending that time together. It's also kind of a belated anniversary for us. That's right, our 3rd wedding anniversary is coming up on the 9th. It's so hard to believe it has been 3 years already. Time flies. Over the course of those three years we have done a lot, seen a lot, traveled a lot, accomplished a lot, and been through a lot...but we have done it all together. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful husband and a wonderful marriage. I cannot wait to go through the rest of life together.
Moving on to my 101 in 1,001. I am slowly checking things off our list. I have been doing a lot of cooking, so I have several new recipes to add to my list (they will also follow below). I have made the bed an entire week (which is only because I am on summer break and have the time, and I am now the last one out of bed). My indoor herb garden is growing, I guess it looks okay so far, we will see if we ever get actual "herbs" or just some green sprouts. So, for now, here is my updated list:
My 101 in 1,001: 101 things to tackle in 1,001 days
Start Date: April 24, 2010
End Date: January 19, 2013 (wow that seems like a long time from now!)
Personal Improvement:
Attend yoga at least once a week for two months
Attend kickboxing class at least once a week for two months
Try acupuncture
Not eat out for a month
Have a no tv/internet week
Participate in some type of run (5k, etc.)
Finish my Master's Degree
Try a whole Zumba class at the gym
Do strength training exercises twice a week for a month (working on this)
Jog 3 miles again like I used to be able to do:)
Have a spa day
Get some new jewelry
Get an awesome pair of heels and actually wear them
Get a tan!
Get teeth professionally whitened
Faith:
Finish reading the entire Bible
Consistently journal my Bible reading daily for at least one month
Share my faith with someone new
Complete a missions trip of some sort
Pray for others every day (work in progress)
Travel:
Visit San Diego
Visit Tombstone
Go camping
Return to Ecuador
Go to the Galapagos
Go on a cruise
Drive route 1 in California
Stay at the Venetian in Vegas
Go to the Phoenix Zoo (and not just for Zoolights)
Go to Napa Valley
Stay somewhere new in Sedona
Visit Flagstaff in the winter
Adventures:
Hike Camelback mountain
Hike the Grand Canyon
Learn to play golf
Learn to play blackjack
Try 20 new recipes (8/20)
Learn to make a new mixed drink
Read 10 new books (currently reading 1 of 10)
Try the night tour of the Desert Botanical Gardens
Try 5 new hiking trails in Phoenix
Find 10 new restaurants to try in Phoenix (2/10)
1. Ta Carbon (super yummy Mexican hole-in-the-wall kind of place)
2. Joe's Farm Grill (another restaurant from Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives)
Learn to bake and decorate a cake
Get a bike or rollerblades
Go horseback riding again
Go to a concert
Stay for both movies at the drive-in
Go swimming in Lake Pleasant
Find a place to go fishing in Phoenix
Drive across the border
Buy an expensive bottle of wine (more than $20)
Try 5 new sushi rolls
Family/Friends:
Have a baby
Have a girl's weekend with my college roommates (in the planning stages)
Have a designated date night once a week for a month
Go on a picnic with my husband
Take my dog to the dog park in Gilbert with the lake (checked it out on 5/16/10, planning to take Tevez in a couple of weeks, it looks really cool!)
Get grandma and grandpa out here for a visit
Have a candlelight dinner with my husband once a week for a month
Take a dancing lesson with my husband
Take a mother/daughter trip
Host a wine and cheese party
Go to at least 5 sporting events with my husband
Get professional pictures taken of my husband and I
Financial:
Pay off the Nissan Altima
Get a minimum of $5,000 in the savings account
Reach a point financially where I can stay home or work from home
Stick with a budget for five full months
Not buy any new clothes for a month
Spend less than $300 on groceries in a month
Put $5 in the savings for each completed task and donate $5 for each incomplete task
Hobbies and Creativity:
Make Shutterfly albums with all of our pictures
Learn some type of new craft
Get a nicer camera and learn how to take great pictures
Update blog at least once a month (in progress)
Go to a pottery studio
Home:
Redecorate/repaint our bedroom
Buy a sectional sofa with a pullout couch for our guests
Buy something from Etsy
Put grass in our backyard
Get some flower pots for the front yard
Have a shredding party and clean out the filing cabinet
Get a digital picture frame
Organize my favorite recipes
Keep up with cleaning for an entire week
Bake something once a month
Reaching Out:
Volunteer somewhere other than church
Leave a 50% tip for dinner
Give money to one of the homeless people by school
Actually meet and know both of our neighbors names
Lend someone a microloan
Send handwritten notes to each of our sponsor children in Ecuador
Pay for the person behind me in the drive through
Buy a goat for someone in a poor country
Getting Green:
Use reusable shopping bags every shopping trip for a month
Try a new "green" method of cleaning
Eat fruit off the trees in our own backyard
Grow an indoor herb garden (in progress, just planted my cilantro and parsley!)
Learn to garden desert style and actually have a vegetable garden in our backyard
There you have it! If you are interested in starting your own list, here is a great website to get you going:
http://dayzeroproject.com/
And some delicious new recipes!
Try them!
An Ecuadorian favorite, not the first time we have made this one:
Swordfish Ceviche with Chifles and Patacones, and served with Bud Light Lime of course:)
This recipe comes from a cookbook I bought in Ecuador. It is a very popular dish there, and soooo good.
1. Cut fresh swordfish into small squares
2. Place fish in a large bowl with 1 cup of freshly squeezed lime juice, salt, and pepper
3. Mix together and allow to sit in the refrigerator for at least 3 hours, stirring occasionally (the acid in the juice "cooks" the fish)
4. Meanwhile, slice a red onion very thin, and put in boiling water to make it soft and take away some of the bitterness, drain
5. Add to the onion one diced tomato and a handful of chopped fresh cilantro, set aside
6. Remove fish from fridge, add in a small amount of orange juice and a tbsp of dijon mustard, mix well
7. Cook on low heat for 10 minutes, then add onion, tomato, and cilantro
8. Mix and taste (you can add more orange juice if it's too bitter
9. Let ceviche cool in the fridge, then serve with chifles and patacones as well as some fresh popcorn (we used something special from Ecuador)
YUM!
To make chifles, you take a plantain that is green (they look like big bananas at the store) and you slice it very very thin like potato chips and fry them in oil, add a little salt
To make patacones, you take a green plantain and slice it into about 2 in pieces, then you fry those pieces in hot oil, take them out and smash them down with a glass, dip them in salt water, and put them back into the frying pan until they are golden brown
This is what patacones look like. We have a special tool to smash them, but a glass works fine.
Next recipe is...
Grilled Mahi Mahi Fish Tacos
I love fish tacos. Here's how I made these:
1. Marinate two Mahi Mahi fish fillets in olive or canola oil with chili powder (lots), lime juice (lots), and chopped fresh cilantro.
2. Grill the fish in foil until flakey, then flake fish with a fork and place on corn tortillas (they have to be corn for fish tacos)
3. Serve diced tomatoes, chopped fresh cilantro, chopped green onions, shredded cabbage, and sour cream on top
4. We ate ours with brown rice and sliced avacado
And my favorite salad ever...
Strawberry and Spinach Grilled Chicken Salad
This is the best summer salad!
For the dressing:
1. Mix together balsalmic vinegar, olive oil, strawberry preserves, and dijon mustard (I just played with the amounts until it tasted good)
2. Heat them over low heat until strawberry preserves "melt", then put in the fridge to cool
3. Grill some chicken with just basic salt and pepper seasoning, cut into strips and set aside
4. The salad consists of spinach, sliced strawberries, feta cheese, chopped walnuts, and chopped green onions
5. Arrange chicken on top and pour on the dressing. Soooo good. Even Santi asked for it again the next night!
Well, that's all I have for now. Time to go study!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Summer is so close I can taste it!
One more week and I am officially on summer vacation. For the first time in forever I have a pretty low key summer planned. No visitors, no projects, no moving, only a little traveling which is always fun. Once school is out on Friday, I have until June 15th to do basically nothing. I can't wait! Well, I do have to take the AZ/US constitution class on the 5th to renew my license, but other than that...NOTHING. I can't wait to relax, do some organizing and cleaning, maybe a little planning for next school year, and of course lounge by the pool. Then, on the 15th we leave for Indiana to spend four days with family, including grandpa who is coming from Ecuador. We are then bringing grandpa back to Phoenix with us for one quick day, then driving him out to L.A. for father's day with the family out there. After a couple days in L.A. with family, Santi and I are driving down to San Diego for some couple time and a relaxing vacation. This will be the first vacation we have had as a couple since our honeymoon. All other vacations have been family trips, or trips to visit family, so I am excited to have this alone time. I am also hoping to squeeze in a girl's weekend in July with my old college roommates. I miss them terribly and it's been WAY too long since we've seen each other.
Other than counting down the days until summer, I have been busy with all of the last minute end of year school stuff, not to mention grad school. I am pleased to announce though that I am only 2 and a half classes away from being DONE. I cannot wait and I really hope it pays off (literally because I owe a boatload of money on student loans now). In between all the craziness, Santi has had two whole weekends off which has been FANTASTIC. I have also accomplished a few more items on my list of 101 in 1,001. We visited a new restaurant, our third from Food Network. It's called Joe's Farm Grill and it's located in Gilbert, AZ on the east side of Phoenix. Here's a couple of pics:
It was a really cool restaurant located on an urban farm. It was featured on the show "Diner's, Drive-Ins, and Dives" with Guy Fieri. It was set up like a burger joint, and all the food is made with ingredients straight from the urban farm on the property. I guess it's been in their family for years, and they turned the old 60's style ranch farm home into the restaurant. It has tons of outdoor seating, and huge old trees (which are rare in Phoenix) to create some shade. They also have misters for hot summer months. It's got a really neat retro vibe, and the food is all organic and healthy. We have also visited Matt's Big Breakfast from that show, located in downtown Phoenix, which is also delicious. Here's a pic there with the Food Network logo in the background:
Aside from visiting another restaurant, I have been trying some more new recipes. So here they are:
For the tabouli salad I cheated and bought the box mix. Much easier. I like the Far East brand best. Look for it by the couscous and rice.
I also tried this:
And this:
I had to use a lot more bread crumbs than what the recipe called for, but they were pretty good. I served them with brown rice and avocado. The salsa was delicious and I actually used the leftovers in another recipe the next day (see below). Here's the crab cake and salsa recipe:
Well, that's all for now I think. Right now we are working on some delicious Ecuadorian swordfish ceviche with tostado and patacones. I will post this recipe and pic at a later date;)
Other than counting down the days until summer, I have been busy with all of the last minute end of year school stuff, not to mention grad school. I am pleased to announce though that I am only 2 and a half classes away from being DONE. I cannot wait and I really hope it pays off (literally because I owe a boatload of money on student loans now). In between all the craziness, Santi has had two whole weekends off which has been FANTASTIC. I have also accomplished a few more items on my list of 101 in 1,001. We visited a new restaurant, our third from Food Network. It's called Joe's Farm Grill and it's located in Gilbert, AZ on the east side of Phoenix. Here's a couple of pics:
It was a really cool restaurant located on an urban farm. It was featured on the show "Diner's, Drive-Ins, and Dives" with Guy Fieri. It was set up like a burger joint, and all the food is made with ingredients straight from the urban farm on the property. I guess it's been in their family for years, and they turned the old 60's style ranch farm home into the restaurant. It has tons of outdoor seating, and huge old trees (which are rare in Phoenix) to create some shade. They also have misters for hot summer months. It's got a really neat retro vibe, and the food is all organic and healthy. We have also visited Matt's Big Breakfast from that show, located in downtown Phoenix, which is also delicious. Here's a pic there with the Food Network logo in the background:
Aside from visiting another restaurant, I have been trying some more new recipes. So here they are:
Greek Chicken Pitas with Tabouli Salad
I admit, this is technically the second time I have made this meal, but I love it and it's so quick and easy to make. Here's the recipe:Cucumber Sauce | |
1/4 | cup Yoplait® Original Fat Free plain yogurt |
1/3 | cup finely chopped seeded cucumber |
1 | medium green onion, sliced (1 tablespoon) |
1 | teaspoon grated lemon peel |
Dash salt and pepper | |
Sandwiches | |
2 | teaspoons lemon juice |
1 | teaspoon olive or vegetable oil |
1/4 | teaspoon dried oregano leaves |
Dash salt and pepper, if desired | |
2 | boneless skinless chicken breasts (4 oz each) |
1 | pita (pocket) bread (6 inch), cut in half to form pockets |
1 | small tomato, sliced |
2 | thin slices red onion |
1. | Heat gas or charcoal grill. In small bowl, mix sauce ingredients. Set aside. (Sauce may become watery if it stands longer than 30 minutes.) |
2. | In another small bowl, mix lemon juice, oil and oregano. Brush lemon mixture over chicken, coating all sides. Sprinkle with salt and pepper. |
3. | Place chicken on grill. Cover grill; cook cook over medium heat 15 to 20 minutes, turning once, until juice of chicken is clear when center of thickest part is cut (170°F). Wrap pita halves in foil; place on grill 1 to 2 minutes or until warm. |
4. | Place chicken, tomato and onion inside pita pockets. Top with sauce. |
For the tabouli salad I cheated and bought the box mix. Much easier. I like the Far East brand best. Look for it by the couscous and rice.
I also tried this:
Mediterranean Chicken with Rosemary Orzo
1/2 | lb uncooked chicken breast tenders (not breaded) |
1 | clove garlic, finely chopped |
3/4 | cup uncooked orzo or rosamarina pasta |
1 | cup Progresso® chicken broth (from 32-oz carton) |
1/4 | cup water |
2 | teaspoons chopped fresh or 1/2 teaspoon dried rosemary leaves |
1/4 | teaspoon salt |
1 | medium zucchini, cut lengthwise into fourths, then cut crosswise into slices (3/4 cup) |
2 | plum (Roma) tomatoes, cut into fourths and sliced (1 cup) |
1/2 | medium bell pepper, chopped (1/2 cup) |
1. | Heat 10-inch nonstick skillet over medium-high heat. Cook chicken in skillet about 5 minutes, stirring frequently, until brown. |
2. | Stir in garlic, pasta and broth. Heat to boiling; reduce heat. Cover and simmer about 8 minutes or until most of the liquid is absorbed. |
3. | Stir in remaining ingredients. Heat to boiling; reduce heat. Cover and simmer about 5 minutes, stirring once, until bell pepper is crisp-tender and pasta is tender. |
And this:
Crab Cakes with Cilantro Lime Salsa
I had to use a lot more bread crumbs than what the recipe called for, but they were pretty good. I served them with brown rice and avocado. The salsa was delicious and I actually used the leftovers in another recipe the next day (see below). Here's the crab cake and salsa recipe:
Salsa | ||||||
1 | can (15 oz) Progresso® black beans, drained, rinsed | |||||
1 | can (11 oz) Green Giant® Niblets® whole kernel sweet corn, drained | |||||
1 | large tomato, chopped (1 cup) | |||||
2 | tablespoons lime juice | |||||
1 | tablespoon olive or vegetable oil | |||||
1/2 | cup chopped fresh cilantro | |||||
1/4 | cup chopped red onion | |||||
2 | teaspoons ground cumin | |||||
1 | teaspoon sugar | |||||
1/4 | teaspoon salt | |||||
Crab Cakes | ||||||
3 | cans (6 oz each) crabmeat, drained | |||||
1/2 | cup finely chopped green bell pepper | |||||
1/2 | cup Progresso® Italian style bread crumbs | |||||
1/4 | cup chopped fresh cilantro | |||||
1 | medium green onion, sliced | |||||
1/4 | teaspoon salt | |||||
1/8 | teaspoon ground red pepper (cayenne) | |||||
2 | tablespoons mayonnaise or salad dressing | |||||
1 | egg, beaten | |||||
2 | tablespoons olive or vegetable oil | |||||
2/3 | cup Progresso® Italian style dry bread crumbs |
This is what I did with the leftover salsa:
Chicken Soft Tacos with Mexican Rice
This was my own invention. I just browned some chicken in the skillet, added some water and taco seasoning, then the leftover cilantro lime salsa. I served it with flour tortillas and some Mexican rice which I just make by adding Goya brand "sazon" which makes the rice orange but very yummy.Well, that's all for now I think. Right now we are working on some delicious Ecuadorian swordfish ceviche with tostado and patacones. I will post this recipe and pic at a later date;)
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