Dear Luca

Dear Sweet Baby Boy,
I can only call you that for a few more months it seems. The thought of you being a toddler and not a baby anymore brings tears to my eyes. When did you get so big? This past week I saw two little teeth poking through your gums. Your adorable little gummy grin is about to be replaced with a toothy big boy smile. I cannot believe it. It seems like we brought you home from the hospital only yesterday. Would you please slow down already?! Oh, and then there's the army crawling. All of a sudden you are mobile, and the world is at your fingertips. You can no longer be contained, which means mommy and daddy don't get to relax much (as if we did anyways). You are getting faster every day with your army crawl, and poor Tevez is always trying to escape when he sees you headed his way. It cracks me up when you take off after his toys. As if you didn't have a million toys lying around. Apparently the dog's toys are much more interesting. I guess all the extra exercise is wearing you out, because you have also slept through the night for two nights in a row. Thank you!!! I guess you knew that mommy was starting to get pretty worn out. I can't wait for summer break when you and I can just hang out every day like we used to. I miss that. I hate having to work, and I hope you know that I would much rather be home with you enjoying every single second. I know you are going to love going to the pool this summer. You just love the bath tub. Well, I am off to look for more ideas for your 1st birthday party. Yes, I realize it's over 4 months away, but I can't wait to put together the best celebration ever! But please don't let it come too fast...

We love you baby boy!!!!

Mommy and Papi

Confession

I need my smart phone back. Ok, I don't need it, but I really, really, really want one again. Santi got an iphone 4s yesterday, and I am slightly jealous. Ok, I am really jealous. I used to have a smart phone. Just a simple Droid, nothing fancy. I got rid of it before Luca arrived thinking I was going to be all money wise and save the $30 a month we were paying in data. I figured with a baby around there wouldn't be much time for playing on a fancy phone. Not to mention I was worried about what said baby might do to an expensive phone. Well, after about 10 months without my smart phone I have decided maybe I need to rejoin the 21st century. I hate that my dumb phone can't take any decent pictures. When you have an adorable 7 month old that is always doing cute things, you just want to be able to grab a camera and snap away. When the camera is not handy, I am out of luck. I also want to do more blogging, mainly because this is the only way I am recording all the events of Luca's first year. I skipped the whole baby book thing and decided I would keep this blog as my way of remembering all those special moments. I want to write more, and mostly I want to be able to quickly send pictures to the computer and blog away. I want to quickly and easily capture every second of my baby's life, because let's face it, he is growing way too fast and the baby phase isn't going to last much longer! So...I am thinking of taking Santi's old Droid Incredible for the time being, and hopefully becoming one of the cool kids with an iphone in December when I can upgrade again. I hope this means more blogging and more pictures of the world's cutest baby!

7 Months and So Many Changes

Wow. On Sunday our precious little baby turned 7 months old. Not only that, but in a matter of days he became an expert at sitting (no more toppling over), learned how to wave hi, and started army crawling forward and backward. I think it's time to finish the baby-proofing. I cannot believe how fast he is growing. My heart melts when I see pictures of him as a newborn. It seems like I blinked and that tiny baby doubled in size. Life has changed so much since he arrived, and even though balancing the demands of motherhood and a full time job is exhausting, I would do it over and over again. Luca has filled our lives with so much joy. He is such an incredible blessing.
While Luca is busy reaching milestones and changing every day, I am dealing with changes of my own. I have been praying for a long time for God to provide a way for me to stay at home with Luca. It makes me sick knowing that half of my paycheck goes to childcare and that I could be spending my days with him instead of other people's children. I struggle with this every.single.day. While I love teaching, I don't want to look back and regret the time I have missed with him. I am thankful that I am in a career that gives me 3 months off every year, but it's still not enough. So, as contract time approaches I am spending a lot of time praying for God to guide my decision and give me peace about it. I don't know what the future holds, and I am trying to remind myself daily that He is faithful. That He knows our deepest desires and has our best in mind. I am feeling called to take yet another leap of faith in life, and just like the last one, I am sure it won't be without struggles, but I know that He will provide. He is good. He is faithful. I am reminded of that every day when I look into the eyes of my precious rainbow baby (a rainbow baby refers to a baby born after a loss).